Deployment 2

Sitting here at the end of another groundhog day.... I took it a little easier today, it's Sunday so it's okay. Started thinking about coming home, what I wanted to do, who I wanted there, all that kind of stuff. However, I'm not sure it will be that easy, everyone's life moves on, time doesn't stop. For those over here, time there stops because one day bleeds into another. I just want to take five minutes when I come home, stand with my eyes closed and take a deep breath. Because, I made it, I survived an experience very few are willing to embark on.

Yea, I didn't really leave the wire (I'm an S1... I'm a fobbit.. whatever), but that doesn't mean the enemy can't get to us, he's tried. While you're pushing through the work you have to accomplish, your chest gets tight, its hard to breathe, and you have an adrenaline rush that won't come down. That's not fun, but the reminder of a mission to accomplish, the necessity to push through, and that you don't have time to freak out is what keeps you from curling up in a ball. 

This is an experience, one that tests your strength of mind and character.... I just wonder how I'll see the world when I'm home.